100 Gratitudes

I was thinking about all of the bad (but not life threatening) things that happened to us last week and feeling awful when I suddenly heard (with my psychic ears) this: “100 Gratitudes”. (I literally got a tingly feeling in my legs when I wrote that just now). Was this my intuition talking? After hearing it several times, I decided that it was. I stopped my pity party and got out my journal* and wrote a list of “100 Gratitudes” (in no particular order).

The process was completely stream of consciousness. One thing led to the next and to the next. It took all of about 10 minutes. In the space of that time, I shifted my energy from negativity-dominant to positivity-dominant, and then I did not allow myself to backslide. This is probably the most important part of this activity. When I noticed one of those thoughts trying to creep back in (Oh no! I can’t believe that bad thing happened!), I looked at The Gratitudes and was able to focus on one of those instead. (Take that, bad thing!).
So, if you are wallowing in the quagmire, let me throw you this lifeline. Maybe it will help you, too. Keep reading

Playing with fire

I was getting ready to settle in with a book the other night and decided to light a small candle. I wasn’t thinking about the candle or the match as I did this. I was thinking about what I was going to do next after it was lit.

I picked up the box of matches without thinking much about it –after all, I’ve lit probably thousands of matches in my life. It was a task like brushing my teeth. Something I knew how to do, did all the time, that didn’t require much conscious thought. As I struck the match, the head of it ignited and then it flew off the matchstick and toward my left eye. Keep reading

The Ammo Casting Couch

I am new to shooting and am still trying to figure things out, like where to shoot, how to budget for gear and lessons, and where to get ammo.

To be fair, I think everyone is trying to figure that last one out. Ammo is hard to find and when you do find it, it can be expensive to buy.
I think everyone who shoots knows this. But here’s something that I learned recently that maybe everyone doesn’t know:

There are sexual predators alive and well and doing business among what appear to be the mild-mannered business professionals in my area.

I found a shop nearby that sold ammunition and then just last week I found out I couldn’t get it there anymore. Oh, he still had ammo, and I could afford the (monetary) price, but I discovered that there was a new stipulation attached. Keep reading

Trifecta of resolutions

So as I mentioned in the previous post, my practice for the past several years has been to choose one word to focus on every year rather than making a list of resolutions. For 2021, however, I am breaking my resolutions-fast.

Here’s why: I spent a lot of time in 2020 trying to help people to see and know the truth about many things and for the most part, it was not effective. I know this because I think maybe only about 2 (padded estimate) people actually did appreciate and/or benefit from me doing this. Keep reading

My trip to the ER

I see almost never go to the doctor or to the hospital.

Until I last month, when I suddenly did.

I had been asleep for a few hours when I awoke with a pounding heart. It was a uncomfortable, but I wasn’t too worried.

At first.

I got up and went into the bathroom, shutting the door quietly so as not to wake up my husband. I put the light on and waited in vain for it to stop. The pounding continued, twice as fast as my heart should be beating. I took some deep breaths, trying to be calm, still waiting for it to stop.

It didn’t.

Eventually, I realized that I needed help. I woke up my husband.

The last time I had to wake my husband up in the middle of the night to take me to the hospital was when I was pregnant with my second child and my water broke. This occasion wasn’t anything as great as that, but my husband was every bit as heroic. Keep reading

Criminal in doctor’s clothing?

I decided to treat you all to some stream of consciousness thoughts I had this evening.

I was thinking about how so much of what I was taught in school turned out not to be true. Actually, this is an understatement, because not only was this information not true, it was in fact the opposite of truth.

I began thinking about Fauci (I am sure you have heard of him. If not, turn on any mainstream news channel and you probably hear his name and opinions ad nauseum). Fauci, in my view, is doing his best to ruin our country. Keep reading